Self separation part 2

 

8/26/21

I forgive myself for allowing myself to desire for others to give me admiration and appreciation.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to fuck myself by allowing myself to look for appreciation and admiration outside of myself in spearation of myself.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear being alone and thus believing that i need to have relationships where i am appreciated and admired to distract me from what is here as myself, as my darkness.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that i am actually scared of other people when i am actually only scared of what is in my own mind.

I forgive myself for allowing myself myself to an extent to believe that i am traumatized by how others treated me throughout my life when the dark reality is that i fucked myself by looking for myself in others as self separation not seeing that i am and always have been and always will be in essence completely and absolutely alone.

I commit myself to walk a process wherein i redefine my relationships or something like that wherein i actually walk a process of becoming self aware by bringing all my reactions triggered by what is external or my relationships back to myself to embrace self honesty and self responsibility.