Projecting my self judgment part 2

 9/2/21

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand in the moments that i judge women as stupid and shallow that i am really just projecting onto them, as self separation, that i judge myself as stupid and shallow.

I forgive myself for not realizing that i am projecting onto them that i actually have and still do put a lot of my self-worth on how i look, where i'll often see myself as superior to other men because according to me i think i am better looking than them. Interestingly though, sometimes i think i am so ugly and unlikeable. So what i see is that just how i judge other men as inferior because they are ugly or just not as attractive and as good as me, i am really just projecting my self judgment onto them even then.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to judge myself as stupid and shallow and a pathetic loser because i try to feel good about myself by putting value on shallow aspects about myself and yet deep down beneath my inflated ego i feel like massive shit about who i am.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to deceive myself and supress myself every time i allow myself to justify my judgments towards others, where i am actually hating myself and spiting myself and only myself, yet in those moments i sometimes wont realize it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in self judgement and self hatred.

I commit myself to start investigating the point of self judgment more to start coming more to terms with this point so i can more effectively assist and support myself to start releasing myself from self judgment.