Sunday, August 15, 2021

8/11/21 panic attack when walking away from work

8/11/21

Today i had an experience of a panic attack when i was walking away from my work place after i had just gotten out off work. So i was walking and since we had all or many of us employes at my job gotten off at the same time several of them past me on their vehicles as i was walking (since i dont have a vehicle).

So, shortly after i got out of work and started walking my way i experienced fear. I feared that i would look gay to the employes that were passing by me on their vehicles by how i was walking. This is how i consciously perceived it.

As i was experiencing this i was trying to relax my body and to an extent i did, but i didnt quite manage to be okay with the way i was walking. It bugged me. And i am sure there was some physical tension in my body but i dont recall exactly where in my body i was tense.

What i noticed is that i was already in that particular 'mood'.



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