7/27/21

I forgive myswlf for accepting and allowing myself to fear experiencing panic attacks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that other people will say or comunicate or know that i am or have been gay.

Its not that i am fully gay but ive just experiences myself foe some time in a way as what that is defined to be.

I forgove myself for acceptimg amd allowing myself to ecperience myself as losing myself as my body becomes stiff and rigid amd my footsteps tense ajd fearful and my back and neck stigfen and in my mind i am like in some hoeeor movie where my woest nightmare is at least to an extent coming true as the experience of a panic attack as i fear that other will now know that i am a despicable human being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having this experience reoccur and therefore i kive in fear of possible scenarios where i believe that this panic experience can potentialy or likely unfold and play out.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear experiemcing these panic attacks.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to realize thay nothing real will change if such am experience would happen as in that which i fear happening, i mean what do i really fear about others seeing that oh my gid he is gay? What the hell do i really fear?