7/21/21 supressimg that i dont like myself

 

7/21/21

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that today i will not have a good day at work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that i will have a bad day at work today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that i will not feel good about myself at work today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that i will feel bad about myself at work today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myswlf to fear feeling fearful at work today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear feeling ashamed of myself at work today.

I forgive myself for acceptimg amd allowing myself to fear feeling embarrased at work today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myswlf to fear feeling humiliated at work today .

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear feeling or experiemcing whatever i do come to feel or experience while at work today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not being liked at work today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire for others at work to like me so that i can feel good about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from myself buy wanting others to like me so that i feel good instead of simply feeling good with me liking myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to supress that i do not like myself by wanting others to like me so that i can feel better about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear seeing that i do not like myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself in supressing that i dont like myself allow that to compund in my mind underneath the surface to where it eventually comes out in self destructive ways as vengeful self hatred.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to realize that the only solution to this is to face that i do not like myself and that i feel bad about myself, because in supressing it and looking for others to like me so that i feel better about myself this will not remove the fact that deep down i dont like myself and that therefore i feel like shit about myself.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to realize that the more i supress that i do not like myself and that therefore i feel bad about myself the more i will not like myself and thus the more i will feel worser and worser about myself, as by supressing it it compunds and becomes more and more extensive the longer i keep supressing it, until it eventually compunds to the point that it takes over my conscious mind through possesion.