7/20/21 procrastination as self-sabotage

 7/20/21

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in and as procrastination.

I forgive myself that in existing in and as procrastination i have caused myself, as a consequence thereof, to become lazy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in and as laziness.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that in existing in amd as procrastination amd thus laziness i am sabotaging myself wherein this leads to depression as i just give up and start wasting my time and opportunities by living in vain just distracting myself following my mind's feelings and cravings without self directive principle.

I forgive myself that i have accepted amd allowed myself to procrastinate by distracting myself with things that is not of self directive principle, and within this i forgive myself for thereof allowing myself ti exist as shame.

I forgive mysf for not allowing myself to realize thay by accepting and allowing myself to procrastinate i am accepting and allowing myself to supress shame.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to realize that my depression is to an extent caused by my accepted and allowed shame.

I forgive myself for accepting amd allowing myself to exist in amd as self-hatred as supressed shame.

I forgive myself for accepting amd allowing myself to keep myself enslaved to the addiction to masturbation to images through accepting amd allowing myself to exist as suppresses shame which then builds up until it takes over and it comes forh as self-destructive vengeful self-hatred.

When and as i see myself procrastinating or wanting to procrastinate i stop, breathe, amd realize that i am busy supressimg my shame (and even guilt) and creating self hatred. I commit myself to push myself to stop procrastinating so that i may stop laziness, and so depression as shame (and guilt too) and self-hatred.